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dressing. She accepted that very well and we are closer for the open- ness. She is now goig to read your book. I don't know how she will react to what you say (you know what I would like) but I most want her to know me and to love me. If I can show more of my FP side to her, then all the better.

I do know that I must pursue what I feel and what I love. And I will -without the guilt and fear. But there are a few risks that I will not be able to take or do not want to take. First, most important in my life is my wife and children. I will cross dress, but not at their expense or the expense of our love for each other. Second, I have a very good job, one which I want to keep and to pursue. Living as a man is a must for me. I will find ways to fulfill my femininity.

The last point I want to make now is that I feel so relieved. All these years I knew I was O.K.; I knew that there was something very right about cross dressing; and I felt that I was a better person for it in spite of the negative. The burdens of the negative are now llifted, and you know how good that feels. of particular relief is that I don't have to use my sex life to get to my FP feelings and desires. My sex life and my cross dressing can stand on their own, and should they come together once, occasionally, or often, then that would be great,

too.

Sincerely yours,

J.S.

P.S. I hope to be in contact with you again soon. Confidence, of course, is expected.

Dear Virginia:

I don't mind third or fourth class mailings except that there is less of a guarantee that it will get here. I realize there is a problem in rising rates... but what other choice is there? Where there is quality is cost and TVia is first quality. It is the only source I know of that is clear of homosexuality, rubber fetishism, bondage and domination or sado-masochism, etc. You are also reliable, even if a bit tardy sometimes. I once sent $18 to Pudgy Roberts and got no reply. I

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